Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Early Days of the Year..

Cheez.. already 4th day of January... and I'm still moving like a sleepy snail. I should've been pumped up for these early days of January as many others I've seen blogging about the New Year's high spirit.. but I'm not quite there just yet.

Perhaps I've recalled too much of the moments in the past 2 years when I was heavily pregnant with my first son.. he was a stillborn child.. only 2 days away before the cesarean date.. and on February 20, 2009.. Umar Arief was borne and died.

When the memory peeks through..
I truly feel that I miss you.
                                - yourmom 2011-

Oh well, I just had to type this as my opening note of the Year. It was not easy to forget the loss.. but everyone has his/ her own way of dealing with loss and grief. Interestingly enough, this morning I've stumbled into a blog that uses Art to deal with the loss of her baby by starting a traveling Art Journal called still life 365.

This blog has united many others who have shared the same experience.. so, you may find many links that lead to bloggers who have poured their grieving souls out in order to heal their spirits. 

As a human being, it's only natural to grief. How long?... is the question.

As a Muslim.... as someone with faith in God.. we just know that things happen for a reason. You grief, and then you have to move on with your life. It's not an easy thing to do.. a struggle for many too.. but as long as you believe... insyaAllah, good things will come to you in many other ways. 

Why should I be sad, anyway..? At least someone is waiting for me on the other side of the world... :).


Anonymous said...

You would know the secret of death.
But how shall you find it unless you seek it in the heart of life?
-kahlil gibran-

I miss our baby too.
Every night and day.


DoodleDesign said...

dat's a beautiful one, bee.

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